Sharing my slice of life (#sol14) over at Two Writing Teachers.
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Yesterday I blogged about signing up for an art class. The Kelly Rae Roberts Mixed-Media Mantra class began yesterday. I completed lesson one and introduced myself on the Welcome Page & in the Facebook Group. And then I got scared. So many people in the group are already accomplished artists. Many make a living as artists. The negative voices started in,
"What are you doing here?"
"You don't belong here."
"You aren't any good!"
"You can't draw, paint..."
They didn't stay long. This class is for me. It's for my joy and my growth. I want to learn something new. When those voices jump out at me, I'm ignoring them & when that doesn't work, I'm smiling, saying thank you and moving on.
The voices are ME, you know. I realized that today. They come from a place of high expectations for myself. I'm not good at failing. I need to remind myself that it's ok to fail. It's fun to try new things. AND this is what I expect my students to do everyday in my class...take a risk. Trust me. Find the joy in failure. Do something spectacularly wrong and in that find the success. It's there.
One of my favorite indulgences is watching Top Chef. I am not an accomplished cook, but I love watching them. After so many seasons, I realize that the best dishes ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS come after a big problem: the chef loses an ingredient or burns something or has to "fix" a problem. It seems whenever something goes wrong...that's where the magic is.
I'm expecting lots of magic moments with my Mixed-Media Mantra Class. Lots of failure and finding the joy and beauty in those moments.
Right now, I'm enjoying the beauty of my supplies.
There won't be dinner at the table for a while...it's ok!
Loving my stamps and stickers and paints and paper...they make me so happy that I took this risk.
The favorite thing I purchased is my palette. I feel like a real artist!