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Today is a day where I can see how differently my life could have been...fifteen years ago today I was supposed to get married. If I had, would I be celebrating my fifteenth wedding anniversary? Would I be a mom? So many what ifs?!?! Without getting into the details of the what happened and the whys of it all...I can say this with confidence: It was the right decision. The man I almost married and I are friends again. I moved away and started my own life. But still I wonder...what if...especially on a day like today.
My prayer is that I have followed God's path, whether I knew it or not. Following a path when you don't know where it's going is frightening, but it's what we do because of faith. I have faith. Faith that this is where I'm supposed to be. I really connect with this quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson...
I feel like I did this. I moved hundreds of miles away knowing only two people. I started a career and a life here. I've found friends who have become like family to me. I've found a church where I feel like I belong...but still I wonder.
Following requires so much faith! I used to think that faith was never questioned, but I think otherwise now. I question and I still believe. I struggle and feel sad sometimes and still believe. My path...the path God is leading me on...is mine. I need to BE on my path and follow God. Sometimes I need to sit and rest, but I always get back up and continue to walk...and follow God.