"WRITE. I love to write, but writing is hard! It takes a lot of concentration and thought. It takes planning and creativity. I often write from the heart. I write about what I’m feeling, living, learning. I’m struggling right now because I do NOT want to write. Here. I am avoiding it. I haven’t posted in a week. I’m worried because in a few days the month long writing challenge, Slice of Life is beginning. I don’t want to do it. (Shhh! Don’t tell!!!!) I want to skip it. I avoid when things get uncomfortable. But, I can't avoid this. Writing exposes so much of me and what I’m feeling. How can I write and avoid that? I don’t think I can…but write I must. I am writing a lot in my notebook. I’m writing a lot for my book. I’m writing a lot to people I love (cards and letters). It’s that blog writing that isn’t coming right now. I must write. Write through it. I’m learning new things about what it means to be a writer. It’s hard…but I believe I was born to write…so I. Will. Write."
The words above are from my teacher blog at school, but I really wanted to share them here. I'm wondering if anyone else has felt like this? In the last two weeks I've suddenly dreaded blogging and I can't figure out the reason why. I'm pushing through and I'm going to participate in the March Slice of Life, but my heart isn't in it.
Looking on the bright side, the best part about this is it's giving me insight into my students who really do not like writing and those that struggle with it. I'm offering the classroom Slice of Life as an optional challenge and I have quite a few students who are rising to that challenge. I'm excited to write with them and experience the struggles and the successes.
Writing is hard. I know that. It seems I'm living that right now. What is interesting to me is that although I am struggling with some of my writing, I don't want to quit. What is that quote about having to write to release the madness within? (Really, what is it? I have been looking and can't find it.) I must write. This struggle, this dread, is new to me. I don't like it, but I am going to look at it as a way to become a better writer and a better teacher of writing.
Any words of wisdom are welcome...