Tuesday, February 2, 2016

I've Made Friends with Writing Again

Thank you to Stacey, Betsy, Dana, Tara, Beth, Anna, Kathleen & Deb for this amazing platform to write and share writing! What a wonderful community you've created! I'm honored to be part of it. Join us at Two Writing Teachers.


What is it about writing?
Beginning is the hardest part for me. 

Once I pick up the pen,
open the notebook, 
sit down at the keyboard,
the writing is there. 
It's always there. 

Doesn't mean it's easy!

Writing is like a good friend

Forgiving and grace-full.

Fun and spontaneous
Difficult and challenging.

Writing pushes me
to be a better version of myself.

Writing reminds me
that I'm never alone, the words are always there.

Writing persists
never gives up, even when I've given up.

With ten days at home with over three feet of snow, writing found me again. It nudged me and reminded me to return. I'd only given my writing a perfunctory glance these past few months. I wasn't digging, I was only doubting. I'm writing again. Wake up at four a.m. to write morning pages. I have a new goal to write at least one page each day for my book. I'm writing a sticky note everyday and writing poetry with my students.

Last weekend, I drove a couple of hours to spend the afternoon with my friend Stacey and her daughter. I picked Big Magic, by Elizabeth Gilbert to listen to on the drive. It felt like I asked a friend for advice about whether or not I should keep writing. I sat back and drank it all in.  I've joined an active discussion about Teachers as Writers on Voxer and it's reminded me that I haven't been a writer and I need to get back to it.
Yesterday, I wrote a letter to my book draft. The one I'd pretty much abandoned for months. I apologized and asked forgiveness. I explained myself. I believe this is what forgiveness feels like.



18 comments:

  1. I've wrote about my turn with what you shared above. I'm glad you found your way back! Your poem is inspiring. The voxer group helped me find my way again too. I didn't have the luxury of snow (I wish, just sometimes) just a case of insomnia. I look forward to more of your words.

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  2. I'm coming back to writing, too, after a two month long hiatus. I echo your feelings of guilt, relief, and satisfaction as the words pour out again! Looking forward to your future posts!

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  3. Oh my word Michelle, this is fantastic. I needed to read this. Writing is a roller coaster ride for me. I'm in it and engaged, then the second there is a blip that takes me off my writing rituals--I'm out. It reminds me of exercise. When I exercise I'm so darn happy about it, so why do I stop? Loved your letter to your book!

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  4. "The water doesn't flow until the faucet is turned on." But once it is...watch out! Your words will ring true with so many of us. Yay for you! Can't wait to read the next draft. :)

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  5. What wonderful energy Michelle, sharing your love of writing with us. A blast of passion from a perfect champion. I'm on your train. Love my writing into the morning even if my mornings sometimes feel like they're nights. :)
    Digital Bonie

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  6. SO, I almost feel like you were writing to ME! I too have missed writing and the passion and excitement it provides my soul. I've been reading.....but just unable to write for months.....It seems like the "big" emotional "stuff" of my life has left me exhausted and unable to "focus" on the wonderful bits of life that I still have! Like you, I guess the freakish "blizzard" amidst this unusually mild winter was a "bit of a reminder" to me as well....slow down....focus...pick up that pen....pick up your manuscript....dust off your blog.....focus....

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  7. The blizzard was the universe's way of reminding you that YOU ARE A WRITER!

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  8. Snow today has reconnected me with writing, too, both yours and mine. I like how you personify and reify writing. Thanks for sharing this powerful reminder of writing's potential.

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  9. I've found Big Magic to be so inspiring. But in a subtle way. It is a gift. As were those snow days! Glad you are back in the swing of writing.

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  10. I was so happy to find your #edtime2wrt tweets. It seemed to be the push I needed. Just little short writing. No big deal. In just a week I am carving out writing time like never before. My notebook is full of writing and writing ideas. Blog posts are planned. Love living a writer's life

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  11. Michelle, I'm so glad you found your way back. I feel the EXACT same way as you. I started a book last summer and then self-doubt crept in and I stopped. I told myself it was a dumb idea and I wasn't good enough to write a book.

    Something spurred me to return to it a couple months ago, and two sample chapters are now written. Don't give up on yourself. Don't listen to that inner critic. Keep writing!

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  12. Truly you've had a "snowy" gift these past days, Michelle. Now I'll look forward to hearing more and more about what you're writing!

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  13. Are you still interested in the Voxer group for Big magic? I didn't have many responses. But reading your post, I am thinking we may Just. Do. It. I so understand the putting off of writing. Why do we do this when we know we love writing? I'm glad you have found your way back to your book.

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  14. 4 a.m. ? This is dedication. Your poem about seeing writing as a friend is inspirational.

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  15. Good for you, Michelle...you are plunging into the writing life full tilt!

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  16. The writing life is messy, but wonderful. (And the messy part is why I've hesitated answering your email today. I will Vox you an answer now.)

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  17. I love this. An apology letter to an idea you've abandoned. I have quite a few of those I could probably write.

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  18. Loved this post and your energy and enthusiasm, Michelle. Thanks to your letter to your book, I have a wonderful image of early morning writers, solitary yet interconnected. For some reason your post reminded me of this quote I heard recently ""A writer is not so much someone who has something to say as he is someone who has found a process that will bring about new things he would not have thought of if he had not started to say them.” (William Stafford) I'm so glad that you are back into the writing life. Oh, and I'm definitely going to check out Big Magic!

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